This is such a weird place to be.  Almost through with one project, almost ready to immerse myself into another.  With one, I have to get ready to “let go”.  With the other, I have to commit.

I am the type of writer that, once I “finish” something, I rarely go back.  So I want to make sure “Windfall” is completely done before I start to query.  Once I start to query, it will be hard to return to it.   I am not saying that I wouldn’t do a rewrite for a director … I would definitely do that.  But, until that happens,  it’s about time to move on to another project.

And, yes, I have several projects that might benefit from another draft but I just can’t push myself in that direction.  But if a director wanted a rewrite, the fire would be lit and off I’d go!

Starting a new project is scary.  There is always the chance that I’ll never finish it, that I’ll hit a dead end.   And the subject matter of this next story is going to weigh heavy on my heart.  Am I strong enough to see it through?  Am I ready to begin?  I am but I’m cautious.

Seems like I have one foot in one project and one foot in the other project but my heart is torn between the two.  I know I have to finish “Windfall” before I can fully commit to the new project but it’s hard to “let the baby move out of the house”.

Part of that difficulty is knowing that when I finally say I’m done and I “query”, I’m setting myself up for a lot of rejection.   I am such a glutton for punishment.

The research on the new project is going well.   I’ve picked out three characters who will tell the story.   Now, I’m trying to figure out which “voice” to use.   There are so many choices.   None wrong.  Not all of them right.

And that’s a contradiction if I ever heard one!